I committed to looking in the mirror everyday and saying “ I Love you” to my reflection - lumps , bumps , scars, stretch marks, cellulite, overhangs - the lot!
It felt really awkward and uncomfortable, but I was true to my word and did it no matter how grossed out I felt.
I decided to Love me and my body no matter what for once.
And It felt amazing !
My nervous system was in bits and I had really bad insomnia which made all of this intensely difficult.
My mind was constantly spinning and overthinking and I was completely exhausted and fearful of what was happening.
I turned in on myself and yet again I didn’t like who I was and felt I was failing my family, my friends, my clients and myself almost every minute of every day.
I’m starting to really see why this had to happen and what it was I forgetting.
At the route of it all it was acceptance for me and who I am , it felt I had accepted what I look like , but I couldn’t accept who I was on the inside , why I saw the world the way I did, why I see the world the way I do and why I am who I am - I hadn’t started to love her much at all.
But this journey was necessary, I had to become bare In order to hide no more.
Its really important to me to show the world that being you with what you have now is nothing to be ashamed of and deserves celebrating NOW!
Just this alone allows us to make steps towards what really makes our hearts sings , it matters , you matter , life matters !
Happy Sunday
Em x