Fear of Rejection Almost Stopped Me From Achieving Everything I Have Wanted

I have two siblings who have refused to have anything to do with me and that has been a hard grief to experience because they are alive , they can be involved but they have chosen to not.

I got all caught up in the assumption that I am completely unworthy - I had lost my parents and then two siblings, my younger brother I am still close with and I am grateful to have been accepted by my husbands family and so many of my gorgeous friends. Blood literally isn’t thicker than water for some of us.

But for a long period of time rejection took a stronger hold than acceptance.

I got so scared of loving people I kept a huge guard up all the time , because I was petrified of loving and losing AGAIN.

This then fed into my business I was so scared of letting people down and hearing “ NO” that I made up every excuse in the book to not build it or take any action.

Then when I did finally take action I would scurry back to my “safe” box every time I had to face an Uncertainty or a “rejection”, I would be panicking with hot seats and shaking.

Putting yourself and your beloved service out there for the world to judge , for me was one the scariest things I had to do , because it lead me to facing the multitude of shadows within me that were desperately trying to be acknowledged and I was too frightened to show them incase of facing more intense and painful rejection.

But guess what?

I have survived , I have grown, my heart hasn’t got harder it’s got bigger, I understand now that I am not for everyone and also I cannot serve everyone , but the rights ones they come and we create a space that is sacred and fun along with tears and compassion and facing fears!

Has my fear of rejection dissolved ?? NO

I am human it’s a part of life, but it’s not taking all the power anymore , I can see through it better and recognise “ah this feeling is telling my I’m fearing rejection” not that I am or will be rejected or more so that I can cope with rejection.

I am and many people I know are incredibly, beautifully, sensitive spirits - you DONT have to change that about you , but it’s makes a hell of difference to recognise the reality of what your experiencing - you will get back up and move forward and more often than not in the right direction , that seemed impossible when stuck in fear.

If this speaks to you, you would be surprised how even Reflexology can help you to connect in and shine and support yourself , your body knows you more than anything and when your body is being cared for and heard remarkable things can happen.

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Huge love

Em x