I Used to Hate Being Me

I’d have moments of contentment, but that was soon ruffled by horrible thoughts about myself.

I paid a lot of attention to those thoughts and the feelings it gave me and I assumed they were fact!

As I got older and started a family these thoughts got worse, I was majorly insecure about being liked and accepted and sought the approval of other people’s opinions about me.

It took a few breakdowns and consistent anxiety to see I could not continue living like this, It wasn’t protection anymore.

During the last year I was diagnosed with ADHD and I’ve started expanding my help to others who are also Neurodivergent.

I have had many concerned responses to this diagnosis like :-

“why would you want to label yourself ?”

“Your fine as you are” ( I know this but I deserve to understand why I haven’t felt this way all

My life)

“ahh is the the new “in thing”?” Which I get considering I’m an all or nothing person because when I’m focused I’m 1000% focused and when it gets boring it’s painful! ( ADHD trait)”

There are more but I’ll leave it there.

When you realise you have masked, hid, learnt tactics to be anyone but yourself most of your life and you are now no longer able to do that, it’s bloody scary.

It’s been exhausting and I did it to survive , but I can’t do it anymore.

So I have had to really home in and start to invest in my wellbeing both time and money by doing the things I deeply connect with, making it a part of my life.

I look back and feel sad for the way I treated myself for so long, the habit of self sabotaging arises still. But It doesn’t take over like it used to!

Plus I have a 15 year old myself now and I’ve seen his struggles and improvement.

It’s an ongoing growth, one that’s been a blessing despite it being hard.

I love that my job as a Reflexologist is all about standing up for people to have the right to be TOTALLY them, TRUTHFULLY them and the impact that has on their quality of life and experiences.

I do not wish for anyone to be suffering with false assumptions of who they are and depriving themselves of love and joy.

It doesn’t protect us and it doesn’t happen overnight it takes time, care and attention.

I’m here always to help people there while I help myself - that’s how it works best, otherwise I wouldn’t have a scooby!

If you need time to reflect, chill out, connect back to you. my sessions might help you with that.

Have a think and let me know

Huge love