My Kitchen Renovations

I’ve not been in much I’ve been having renovations in my kitchen...

And all the work that’s being done is through the thrifty findings of marketplace.

So although great , also a head spin.

My back and neck are in bits because the the relentlessness of mundane tasks and feelings of uncertainty on what’s happening is unreal.

However I will share the amazing findings once we are complete .

The one thing that is finished is the hallway with the children’s measurements restored on the door frame .I made sure I kept a record of these and I want them forever . So this is the most “normal” I have atm.

I’ve had a headache all week with the disruption and my living room is wall to wall in kitchen cupboards and boxed up food - I’m so far living off bagels!

And although I am soooooo grateful for this. Bypassing the middle bit which is really unsettling wouldn’t make me a human being.

The lack of computing where anything is or where it will live has made me have multiple crying episodes .

I need to do something to make it feel recognisable so my brain can stop glitching.

The kids have been fab.

But me , I’ve needed a lot of hugs because although I am excited and proud of what we are achieving we’ve have had soo many difficulties too getting this far.

I am very aware that in our culture I will be seen as overreacting and dramatic , that I’m being ungrateful. non of what I am experiencing is a lack of gratitude.

I’m beyond grateful, but shunning real feelings and emotions is toxic.

I have felt out of control and really dizzy .

I have felt lost and confused.

I have felt uncomfortable and frustrated.

Why is it such a threat to express that or own that these are feeligns that are happening?

It’s not! I am a human and I am unsettled and I am not going to give a tiny rats ass about sharing it 😂


But that’s aside I am getting a huge dopamine boost with excitement to show you what we have achieved all though marketplace when we have finished.


So stay tuned peeps

Em x